April 30, 2003

I know I haven't been posting anything meaningful as of late, and this is only going to continue the trend.
I'll be introspectful later. I swear.



April 29, 2003

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April 28, 2003

Kalashnikov in MP3

here's one person I wouldn't have the MD v MP3 argument with...


April 27, 2003

home. bored. killing time before game.


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April 26, 2003

stealing Graham's Random Thought(tm) Posting Style;

- not enthused at all about moving - this is the house I've grown up in, and all kitsch aside, I just don't want to go.

- fuck, whatever. hopefully my next room will not be: a) lime. fucking. green or b) have any sort of goddamn bangle rack.

- jobhunt is getting progressively worse, just applied for jobs at futureshop and visions; this is looking like a two-jobs-and-a-class summer.

- I could do with a bender about now.

- this too shall pass. like any good burrito, Payne says.


April 25, 2003

in happier news, it looks like I just won a microphone and battery box.
go me.

[nope. it was for the first two people, and I was #3]


I swear, things can't stay good. ever.

house we're living in is being sold; got the eviction notice today.
my dad wants to move to surrey.



April 24, 2003

done exams.
headphones are awesome - if you want a listen, I'm more than happy to oblige; just remind me to bring the extension cord.

hi Jackie!


April 22, 2003

they're here.
I can't stop grinning.



get home from the mall.
find notice on door.

"we were unable to deliver your item. please pick it up from (random place in richmond) after 4 pm today."

[that's my head against the keyboard]


April 21, 2003

so close, yet so far.

two... more... exams.


April 19, 2003

note to all readers: comments are temporarily down, dunno when they'll be back.

Jill's party sounded like it would've been fun.
stupid conscience.


April 17, 2003

Track & Trace

let's tracking! (I love Engrish)
anyone familiar with the time difference between here and Japan?


April 16, 2003

things I hate:

- the radio in my head that insists on playing the last half of 2 + 2 = 5, the first half of myxomatosis, and assorted bits of the last broadcast while I'm trying to write an essay on post-colonial identity as expressed by contemporary writers.

- my back. I just turned 18. why the fuck do I have chronic back pain?!

- tracking numbers that don't work. I know they're between here and Osaka, but where between here and Osaka are they?

- buying things on the internet with money orders.

- the rack of bangles - photos up when I'm at home.

- people on the bus who look at me funny 'cause I'm rocking a fauxhawk (for my UBC card photo)


April 15, 2003

while I'm in a reflective mode, I'd like to thank Dingwall and Vanessa and Graham, without whom I'd never have read The Source without which I'd never have joined the AUS, without which I'd never have done anything worthwhile in my first year.

I don't think any of them read this, but if someone would direct them over here, that'd be smashing.


had a fun day in the office.
hung out before/after exam, looked at photos, went for dinner.
saw someone actually use "see above" in a conversation.
it was just nice to get out after copious amounts of studying.

had a chat with chris payne about silly things to do with birthday money, and that was a fun car ride.
it's neat to be done school, I guess, but I really have no clue how I'm going to handle four months without at least weekly contact from these (wonderful) people.
things could be worse, I suppose.


April 14, 2003

coolest. ad. ever.


returning something given to me a couple of days ago:

back in october, I sat with Spencer on the couches at Whistler and judged people. Not really, truly judging them, but more in a lackadaisical manner. After that, I saw him wear a wig as a beard, when he became the gumbo guy at "Mardi Gras". Somewhere between those two events, I decided that this was definitely someone I wanted to hang out with more. And I did.
And I'm glad I did.


am 18.
this last year's been a big shift, in a lot of ways, and I wouldn't have gotten through it as (relatively) smoothly as I did without a lot of help from a lot of people.
you know who you are. thanks, guys.


April 13, 2003

looked in the mirror this morning.
saw something new behind my eyes.
I could get used to it.


April 12, 2003

trying to get the string quartet airbag and the radiohead airbag sync'd, and it's not working too well - I either lose alignment on the bassline or the vocals, which is a total pain in the ass.
any thoughts?


went on a downloading binge, and kazaa gave me:
phone booth - watch the trailer and the last five minutes and you're set.
a doves concert - halfway through, but I'm liking it. lots.
strung out on ok computer - I'm such a geek, but this is definitely enjoyable. replacing radiohead with a string quartet works pretty damn well.

I really hope that the rumour is true.


web survey/quiz, courtesy of Spencer (see list to left for link)

-B A S I C S-
[my name is]: Gerald Jagdishwar Deo
[height?]: somewhere around 5'10" these days
[in the morning i am]: happy to get out of my house, unless I'm stuck at home for the day.
[all i need is]: to get rid of the rack of bangles
[love is]: yes.
[if i could see one person right now]: it's not the same without a posse.
[i'm afraid of]: other people running my life.
[i dream about]: the future. I have the strangest deja vu at times.

-H A V E . Y O U . E V E R-
[pictured your crush naked?]: no.
[actually seen your crush naked]: no.
[been in love]: who hasn't?
[cried when someone died]: death, no.
[lied]: what the fuck sort of dumb question is that? of course I've lied.

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi]: coke.
[flowers or candy]: candy, because it doesn't make me sneeze.
[tall or short]: it's all contextual.

-W I T H . T H E . O P P O S I T E . S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: eyes, then laugh.
[last person you slow danced with]: one of my best friends, at grad.
[worst question to ask]: if you were a man and I was a woman, would you do me?

-W H O-
[makes you laugh the most?]: Graham, Spencer, Dingwall, Virginia, Jayme, Emily and Owen.
[makes you smile]: Paige, V, Naf, Payne, Scottford. oh, and Jenn Lau, because I get to embarrass Chris Eaton.
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: Chris Eaton. exchanging threats is fun!
[who do you have a crush on?]: I'm not telling.
[has a crush on you?]: ignorance is bliss.
[easiest to talk to]: Naf, Spencer, Payne.

-D O . Y O U . E V E R-
[Stay on aim, waiting for someone special to IM you]: no. I'd call.
[save aol/aim conversations]: on trillian, so it happens automatically.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: no, from a strictly aerodynamic standpoint.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: not recently.

-H A V E . Y O U . E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: yeah, but we worked it out
[been rejected?]: of course. ASS.
[rejected someone]: see above.
[used someone]: not for a long time.
[done something you regret]: yeah.

-W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: my brother, in Las Margaritas.
[hugged]: Payne.
[kissed]: My mom.
[you instant messaged]: Spencer.
[instant messaged you?]: Random girl from my BIOL 140 class.
[you laughed with]: Payne, during the ride home.
[you yelled at]: my brother.

-D O . Y O U / / A R E . Y O U-
[color your hair]: No.
[habla espanol]: enough to say that I don't.
[smoke cigarettes]: No.
[obsessive]: A little.
[could you live without the computer?]: yes, but it wouldn't be nearly as fun.
[how many people are on your buddylist?]: 65 + whatever I haven't ported over from ICQ, which would make it something like 200.
[what's your favorite food?]: I prefer not to restrict myself.
[drink alchohol?]: yes.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: it's who you're with that matters more.
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?]: emotional.
[trust others way too easily?]: Not really.

-C U R R E N T S-
[Clothes]: plain gray t-shirt, black shorts with grey stripes down the side.
[Mood]: refreshed.
[Music]: Radiohead - 2 + 2 = 5
[Taste]: mucus - I hate colds.
[Hair]: yes.
[Annoyance]: how the new antenna on my phone refuses to go in.
[Smell]: none - cold.
[thing I ought to be doing]: studying, cleaning, sleeping...
[Desktop Picture]: picture I took in the car at night.
[CD in CD Player]: CDs, pah. I have both Doves albums in the MD.
[DVD In Player]: whatever "best of" random indian movie star my mom watched last....
[Color Of Toenails]: transparent.
[Refreshment]: water.
[Worry]: exams, health, summer being stupidly long.

-A R E . Y O U-
[Understanding]: I like to think so.
[Open-minded]: see above. or below. whatever you feel like.
[Arrogant]: try not to be.
[Insecure]: at times...
[Interesting]: try to be
[Hungry]: Nope - I think my mom thinks I haven't eaten all week.
[Friendly]: yes.
[Smart]: yes, but it's outweighed by the giant slacker in me
[Moody]: Yes but I hide it well.
[Childish]: in a good way.
[Independent]: I try.
[Hard working]: when motivated.
[Organized]: when motivated.
[Healthy]: I was raised on curry.
[Shy]: Only with women that I'm interested in and only when it comes to saying I'm interested.
[Difficult]: only when it's amusing
[Bored Easily]: depends on the activity
[Messy]: I'm teenage, and male. that's a given.
[Thirsty]: A little.
[Responsible]: working on it.
[Obsessed]: here and there.
[Angry]: about certain things
[Sad]: largely contextual.
[Happy]: more often than not.
[Trusting]: Yes.
[Abby]: o_O
[Talkative]: depends who
[Original]: I try
[Ignored]: when I want to be.
[Reliable]: as much as possible.
[Content]: not. at. all.
[Optimistic]: have I argued with the parents yet?
[Deep thinker]: sorry, what? I spaced out.
[Self-disciplined]: getting there.
[Sleepy]: no.
[Lonely]: I could do with company, yeah.


April 11, 2003


the last four days have been nothing short of ridiculous.
put on a rock concert with an amazing team of people, got trenchfoot, dealt with Kazzer's tour manager, watched topless mech-bull-rider (with mini-donuts), almost busted out Ludacris in the car with my mom, somehow managed to manage a stage with only one major fuckup, and fuck, I can't say this alone, so I'm going to steal from other people's blogs.

"Manic. Polar. Exhausted, with mandatory alcohol injection.

We, uh, did it.

And I need to write about it, but I just can't, right now. Because I'm absolutely terrified about the fact that it's over. That those climactic nine hours are gone in a smear of unexpected sunlight and grass and silver cases and quick but sincere hugs. And ... it's not just the day that's over - but - ..."

"I think, that, yes - if Wednesday was one of the greatest things I've ever been a part of, and I'm happier now than I've ever, ever been at home - oh.

I understand, I just got it.

Next year can't be as good as this. For a multitude of reasons, but namely because nothing is supposed to be as good as this, right now. I'm not supposed to feel this way about anything - and I'm convinced, you see, that as soon as I let it go it'll be gone forever. It won't come back after four months. I won't be able to find it. It. Happiness, I guess. Contentment, joy, purpose - cliches, all of them, I know."

that was gratuitous, yes, but Paige has a far better grasp on this language than I do.
and she's hot. (and I know you read this, so no, I don't like you *that* way. but you are the only girl who has ever geeked out with me on headphones, and for that, you hold a special spot in my heart.well, closer to my eardrums, but you get the idea)

slept in res wednesday night - it was cool, but I was *so* glad to come back to my bed.

the people. the people just blow my mind, viciously and repeatedly. I love them all.
everyone is just amazing, for working through rain that almost broke a record (1 mm away), to sacrificing their boyginity for the weather (don't ask), I, er, wow.

I'll do a day-by-day breakdown later.


April 07, 2003

so I can't stay with graham for ACF.


[update: I was driven to/from home every night but wednesday, and I'd guesstimate a total sleep loss of about six hours because of it. not just transit time, but time spent arguing with parents. on wednesday, when I did stay with graham, things went well.]


April 06, 2003

sister update: she's being transferred to another branch, to work with one of her best friends, she's getting cable too (copycat), and her husband seems to have gotten over things.

now, to get her to remove the GODDAMN RACK OF BANGLES.
pictures later.

current music: Doves - M62 Song
current mood: excited


April 05, 2003

today was a good day. got to poster party a little late, went off with chris eaton to the science buildings on a fact-finding mission.
got door codes into said buidings. holy jesus batman, people who choose said door codes are geeks.

since our original prank target was unworkable, we opted to do the chem building.
this meant I ended up on the roof of the chem building, courtesy of one F-master.
that was supremely cool.
hung out in the office with spencer, wreaked havoc on Lianne's MSN (you can't leave it on in the office), and we noticed that said F-master did not say "DO NOT COPY".
I will say no more.

two final things:
a) masturbingo (I laughed until I cried)
b) the fair, the f-master, the headphones, my birthday, my two job apps. I am stupidly stoked.


April 04, 2003

I just had a two-hour chat with Paige. I didn't really know her prior to it, but damn, that girl is cool.

from headphones to coldplay to radiohead to general geekdom.


oh, and I ordered THE HEADPHONES. I'm stupidly stoked.


April 03, 2003

radiohead album is leaked pre-production.
oh well, it still sounds awesome.